Friday, March 22, 2013

It takes time

Moving on.
It takes time.
I am happy today because I realized that I'm over some hang-ups. It took awhile but still.
I'm over and I love it.
Soon I hope every sad memory will come to pass and I can have a brighter view of the future with less baggage.
Lighter, brighter, happier.

Monday, March 18, 2013

A quote on loving forever

"Because we never stop silently loving those who we once loved out loud." - Oriah

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Time to say goodbye*

"Baby patay na si Ken..."

I heard my younger sister say to her boyfriend over the phone.

I was lying in my bed, woken up just in time to hear the bad news. I feigned sleep while I listened to her recount the story.

I listened and I felt my heart.  Nothing.  Then I understood my defense mechanism.  Blocking the painful thoughts.

"OK sige go back to sleep.  I will eat then clean the bathroom."

She put down the phone and I took a peek.  She lay there on her stomach with an iPod on her left hand.  I decided to check the time on my cellphone.  She saw me awake and sat down on my bed.

"Patay na si Ken."  I sat up and gave her a hug.  She told me what happened.

I laid back in my bed and I felt a single tear roll down my left cheek.

Monday, March 4, 2013

The verse I'd like to sing on my deathbed

"Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace."
- 5th verse, Amazing Grace

I like the song Amazing Grace.  I discovered just 20 minutes ago that the version we sang during a concert and the one of Susan Boyle's is lacking.  The verse above is the 5th verse.  The words are by John Newton published in 1779.