Time to say goodbye*

"Baby patay na si Ken..."

I heard my younger sister say to her boyfriend over the phone.

I was lying in my bed, woken up just in time to hear the bad news. I feigned sleep while I listened to her recount the story.

I listened and I felt my heart.  Nothing.  Then I understood my defense mechanism.  Blocking the painful thoughts.

"OK sige go back to sleep.  I will eat then clean the bathroom."

She put down the phone and I took a peek.  She lay there on her stomach with an iPod on her left hand.  I decided to check the time on my cellphone.  She saw me awake and sat down on my bed.

"Patay na si Ken."  I sat up and gave her a hug.  She told me what happened.

I laid back in my bed and I felt a single tear roll down my left cheek.

Come & Go. Or Stay.

People come and go. But sometimes, being left behind hurts. Especially when the person who left you is someone you love. When the person leaves you without even saying goodbye, you feel that you don't matter to the person at all. And this is not only true to romantic relationships. So when you get hurt, you won't tell the person who is leaving. You will pretend that nothing is wrong. What is ironic is that the person who is leaving just doesn't know how to say goodbye. It might also be painful for that person. So it is a cycle. One that can be vicious at times. So i say, when you meet someone and the person becomes important to you, don't do anything stupid to ruin your relationship. Great friendship is hard to come by and not many can experience this in their lifetime. Don't take your friends for granted especially those you feel loves you. You don't need to love them in the same way. Just show them that you care. Because there might come a time that you keep on running after someone who doesn't love you at all that you neglect those who do love you. And you eventually lose them too.

So live. And love.